eXCALmATION poiNTS

I DON'T HAVE A JOB BUT I HAVE AN APARTMENT!!!
AND A BOYFRIEND!!
AND I'M ALMOST DONE WITH COLLEGE!!!!
I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS RIDICULOUSNESS.
!!!

What's Love Got to Do With It?

F-ing spring, popping up and all screwing with my emotions. What is it about fresh air and flowers that turns your heart to butter? At the time you need it to be the strongest?

Especially great timing for more drama, what with the already overwhelming anxiety that is the end of college. I have a thesis to write. I have homework to catch up on, an internship to attend. Jobs and places to live to figure out. Am I moving back to Minnesota next month? Am I staying here? What am I DOING with my LIFE is the main question bobbing around these days.

I've applied for 3 jobs, one with a tutoring organization and one with a elementary school in Harlem as a teacher's aide, and one with a youth retreat group back in Minnesota. I'm also going to be applying for a job as a leader with People to People Student Ambassadors. If I don't get a job I can't stay in NY. If I stay in NY, I'll miss out on skinny dippin' season in Minneapolis.

My entire block has been taken over by the movies. Well, a TV show I guess. It's called Bored 2 Death. I don't have TV so I don't know anything about it but apparently Jason Schwartzman is supposed to be in it although I haven't seen him today. They're filming at the coffee shop on the corner and there have been hipster kids hanging around all day.

TOday I also met Jimmy, Tina's 45 year old Saudi Arabian friend who lives around the corner. He is weird and creepy and has always chatted me up when I walked by before. But tonight we had pizze with him and watched a bellydancing DVD. Still weird and creepy. He definatley jerks off to that video. "Ya, you go, look at you."

Awkward.