Humbert Humbert the Turtle wants out REAL bad

It has been a while, my friends. Cause... stuff... live.... I graduated. And I'm working. And my sublet turned into a real house (literally, with a backyard and a huge kitchen to boot). Still don't have a working computer of my own, but luckily the bf does.

It's strange being in the city with no one here. It feel almost like I'm in another country waiting for something to happen. Stuck in my hotel room, willingly imprisoned because you're too scared to be alone in the city, because you don't know what you'll do alone. It's weird. I really like New York, but I haven't done all the seeing-things I've wanted to yet. Haven't been to the Statue of Liberty. Haven't visited the MoMa. Haven't gone to Times Square. Stuff like that. Everyone thinks "wow, you live in New York. You must do crazy stuff all the time." To which I respond: "Oh ya, like watch episodes of The Office in my bedroom? Totally."

Doesn't help that the weather has been shitty, and subway rides are going up to $2.25 or $89 for 30 days unlimited which is mostly the best deal. I decided the real best way to go is to get a bike. I do feel bad, though, cause bf is building me one but it got halted. But I really need a bike by the time my metrocard runs out.

Beast is in Germany mucking horse stalls. Face is back from Germany and will be drivin' out here in her new biodisele van soon. Buila's in P-Town. Alley Cat's back in CO gettin' all healed from surgery. Bf's working at Radegast Bier Garten.

I've been going to yoga more. And will hopefully keep it up. Yoga to the People. Donation based yoga studio around Manhattan, with a new studio in San Francisco- check it out. I'm hella sore.

Really excited to be going home for Fringe in the end of July. I realized a lot of my being unmotivated and sad here is because I didn't have a transition from being a college kid to being just a person. I didn't go home for the summer to chill out. I'm just stayin' here. Which is fine and dandy, but I'm looking forward to some Minnesota summer. Hopefully my boss won't think 2 weeks is unmanageable and I won't have to look for another job when I get back. Cause that's exhausting.

Really want to go to California. Really bad. I miss sushi-ing with my Twin-san.

eXCALmATION poiNTS

I DON'T HAVE A JOB BUT I HAVE AN APARTMENT!!!
AND A BOYFRIEND!!
AND I'M ALMOST DONE WITH COLLEGE!!!!
I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS RIDICULOUSNESS.
!!!

What's Love Got to Do With It?

F-ing spring, popping up and all screwing with my emotions. What is it about fresh air and flowers that turns your heart to butter? At the time you need it to be the strongest?

Especially great timing for more drama, what with the already overwhelming anxiety that is the end of college. I have a thesis to write. I have homework to catch up on, an internship to attend. Jobs and places to live to figure out. Am I moving back to Minnesota next month? Am I staying here? What am I DOING with my LIFE is the main question bobbing around these days.

I've applied for 3 jobs, one with a tutoring organization and one with a elementary school in Harlem as a teacher's aide, and one with a youth retreat group back in Minnesota. I'm also going to be applying for a job as a leader with People to People Student Ambassadors. If I don't get a job I can't stay in NY. If I stay in NY, I'll miss out on skinny dippin' season in Minneapolis.

My entire block has been taken over by the movies. Well, a TV show I guess. It's called Bored 2 Death. I don't have TV so I don't know anything about it but apparently Jason Schwartzman is supposed to be in it although I haven't seen him today. They're filming at the coffee shop on the corner and there have been hipster kids hanging around all day.

TOday I also met Jimmy, Tina's 45 year old Saudi Arabian friend who lives around the corner. He is weird and creepy and has always chatted me up when I walked by before. But tonight we had pizze with him and watched a bellydancing DVD. Still weird and creepy. He definatley jerks off to that video. "Ya, you go, look at you."

Awkward.

Spring "Break"

More like, Spring Work Week. Thesis writing and internship, woo! There have been a few things to do. Actually, last night was the first time I went to bed before midnight in about 4 days. Blame it on Kayla's Birthday Margarita and Dance Night on Thursday, Birthday party for a high school from on Saturday night, Holi on Sunday (pic), date on Monday, and St. Patrick's Day on Tuesday. A favorite musician of mine, That 1 Guy, played last night and I had planned on going, but plans change and I was passed out really early.

New York weather... I thought Minnesota was random. The last 2 days have been beautiful, and today's it's rainy and gross. I can't wait for NY in the spring. And everyone is saying NY in the summer is even better. Not going to lie, I kinda want to be around for it. I'm leaving my options open. If something comes up here... maybe I'll stick around for a bit.

St. Paddy's day was disappointing. The parade was more a procession of all the Irish people in the city. And the streets were full of drunk high schoolers drinking beer "secretly" from Starbucks cups and trying to pick fights. We left pretty quick and got a Guinness at some Irish pub on 2nd full of suits and ties. Pretty rad. I got to see my friend Ian from Hopkins that night, celebrate his 21st in the Village before I ducked out early to go sleep for once.

Speaking of sleep, now that I've done that, I need to get some work done.
Peace!

Borscht and other things good

I made borscht last night and I can't help but show it off cause it was fuckin' amazing. It also took forever between our hotplate that barely gets hot enough to boil and our 2 cup blender.

Look at the delicious redness!!







We were fat and happy afterwards with Tina's NYC Garbage Conference stolen fruit and cookies.

My apartment almost caught fire today

I suppose it's ok since Tina got a NYPD officer's phone number out of it.

The rest of the world is ignorant

"There have been over 9 million refugees and internally displaced people from conflicts in Africa. Hundreds and thousands of people have been slaughtered from a number of conflicts and civil wars. If this scale of destruction and fighting was in Europe, then people would be calling it World War III with the entire world rushing to report, provide aid, mediate and otherwise try to diffuse the situation. This article explores why Africa has been largely ignored and what some of the root causes of the problems are."

I think it's worth taking a look at.